im just completely tired of my life. everything is the same everyday. aside from the same rutine everyday, i'm tired of the pain, loneliness, hopefulness i will feel. nothing makes me happy. i don't feel like doing anything. i no longer care. i just can't go on like this. i hope i will be dead 2 months from now. by that time i will have everything i need to go through with my plan/choice of method. if i wasn't supposed to die or at least attempt, i highly doubt my method of attemping would have been so easily availible to me all this time.