I think this is what is the greatest source of my depression. And I can't blame others for my own stupid fucking choices. But it seems like I am ALWAYS doing the wrong thing, always making the worst decisions, and people love to let me know about it. It's tiring. I get it. I'm a fuckup. I live with that 24/7. And it sucks knowing just how much I let others down. How the fuck do you function with that knowledge?