I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. I am in about the 38th hour of no alcohol and it hurts. Physically and mentally. I have suffered from alcoholism for 20 years this year. I managed to quit for almost 6 mons, but I did other things. I don't ever remember being completely clean. Ever. Alcohol has almost destroyed my life. I keep trying to kill the pain. It only gets worse and worse and worse. My Dad just died and his birthday is Sat. I need help, but I don't know really how. Sorry for the simple sentences, but I am about to jump out of my skin. Anyone else suffering?