Can I ask, does being here on SF help you feel less alone? Obviously it's not the same as having someone there by your side but its a comfort to a lot of people and I hope it is to you too, even just venting like you are doing now can help.
The current situation is incredibly difficult but it will pass and you can get back to working on all those things again. Those 6 years weren't wasted, I'm sure you learned valuable life skills that will help you when this is all over and throughout the rest of your life.
Have you considered getting online counselling to help you through these dark times?
Personally, I think the most important thing to realise now is that you are not alone and some day soon we'll get back out there in the real world and do whatever it is we fancy. I'm genuinely sorry that you are suffering right now and your family not letting you in their circle is a bit cruel and mean in my eyes, just know SF will never turn its back on you. Hold on tight.
