All my life I simply told myself that life would get better at the next stage in life, after high school, I thought college would be better, after that I thought law school would be where i would find myself. Soon in Law school I cracked under the pressure, it finally hit me that I had no friends, and nothing to show for my life so I cracked under the pressure. Somehow I reasembled myself and put myself together again, and the people close to me said that I should take a year off and get my affairs in order, become "happy" and "productive". That was ten months ago and I have even less then I did before. My life has hit a standstill, I am despretly unhappy about everything I have no job, no money, I can't even afford my medication right now. Worse then that I hate myself more then ever, I hate my current weight, the way I look, the negative way people precieve me, there is absoulty nothing redeming about me as a person. I tried making changes and I failed, I really don't want to go through this anymore, I just want it to be over.