im exhausted, mentally and physically. why do i have to keep fighting these thoughts and feelings, i just want time off, time off from fighting to get some energy to get through this crisis. the harmful thoughts going through my head 24/7 just wont give me any peace. i just want to get some sort of order in my life so i can get back to some kind of normality and order in my life. go away, please go away and let me live my life, please.