The method is ready and waiting. Enough to be sure. I won't call helpline like I did before. I can't take this anymore. I've tried so hard. But it doesn't get better. Hypocritical of me because I always tell people it will get better. But for me it hasn't. Will I be missed? No one will find me for days. I don't know what to do about my cat though. Maybe leave a bunch of food and water. I want to end this suffering so badly right now.