Welcome to the forum. Sorry, you are feeling this way. I, along with many here have found ourselves with the same struggle. Don't hesitate to share as much or as little based on your comfort level. Sending you hugs
I know what you mean when you say you are tired. I think the word you are looking for is "bone-weary." I should know because I'm 68 now. But this past December My Ultimate Dream came true so I have to keep on living. This forum kept me alive long enough so that I could make my dream come true. It will do the same for you.