Hello all, I’m a US soldier currently on leave back home but it won’t be long before I’m shipped out to Iraq again. Right now, I feel overwhelmed and worthless. I originally joined the military in the hopes of eventually attaining a higher education at university. What a mistake! Recently my mother was diagnosed with Cancer, and her medical treatment will probably place my family into massive debt. Our family is relatively poor, and she expressed a desire to die in order to spare us the cost… This is both disturbing and depressing for me. I feel like my life is wasted on this pointless job. Everyday it’s the same… Nonstop Gunshots, mortar rounds, and suicide bombers, and everyday it gets slightly worse. Soldiers over here are lucky if they get four hours of sleep a night. My stomach is churning even at the thought of going back to the hellhole. I never want to hear the scream of a dieing child again. It feels like modern life is void of any true pleasure… at least where I live. Consumerism, TV, videogames, and computers have become happiness placebos. The only reason people seem to make money is to buy more and more of these placebos. Our politicians are worthless, corrupt bastards but the people still stand for it. Our whole society seems like such a farce… Sometimes it feels like in the process of improving human lives through industrialization and modernization we have complicated everything and have consequently made life much less enjoyable. What a brave new world we have created. I hope I get killed in Iraq.