I have a migraine with aura 2-3 times per week. Not 2-3 in a lifetime, or 2-3 per year, heck, not even 2-3 per month. No. That would be wonderful. I have them 2-3 times per week. The pain isn't the worst part. Nope. I get horrible, suicidal mood swings as my "warning sign" that a migraine is coming. This plus all the weirdest migraine stuff like: seeing spots, lightning bolts, blue flashes, light and especially sounds that hurt, plus nausea, lost words and when it gets really bad, people's faces get distorted. But wait, there's more! I also have a weird form of muscular dystrophy that sometimes leaves me paralyzed or makes me struggle to breath. Yes, this is SOMEhow related to the migraines. But wait, there's more! I'm also allergic to most grains (wheat, barley and rye). So I have to watch almost every single thing that goes in my mouth. Read the labels. Don't ever just eat anything. Hungry? Too bad! Oh, but don't ever get too hungry because THAT will trigger a migraine! I must be making this up, right? No. I HAVE had therapy (almost worthless). I AM taking 5 different anti-migraine drugs (just to get to this level). I do take a very low dose of Pamelor (to tamp down the migraine mood swings) and it helps. I'm just so tired of the struggle. I really am. I can't keep up at work. I just quite graduate school (they lied about the program). Had a great year at work last year. This year, nothing but trouble. About half the time now, I have a passive death wish. On bad days, I really just want to jump off a cliff or a nice tall waterfall. I don't think there is any help for me. Therapists are useless stooges. Drugs and more drugs aren't enough. I feel very lonely and tired and cranky. We all die some time, don't we? I hope that, at least, will be a blessing.