Everywhere I go, it's at the front of my mind. It's everything about me now, and I can't even leave the house without wanting to retreat back into my shell and cry. It's destroying my chance of a future and happiness. I have lost the chance to form friendships which I know could be so dear to me. I'm almost at a total loss every single day and I feel like I'm only one bad experience away from making a really bad decision. I feel so bad about myself every time I look in the mirror I feel sick. The thought of leaving the house and having people look at me makes me feel awful. Not looking for pity. Maybe just a friendly ear, or someone who is going through the same thing. :sad: Thanks to anyone taking the time to read this.