blah blah blah. There is no point to anything. There's no meaning to this life that people search for. People strive so hard to be the best, to achieve the most, to be the richest and for what...to simply die. We live to breathe and we breathe to inevitably die. It's all so pointless. It's round and round and round. Same shit different day. There is no end to the bullshit, to the drama, to the lies nor the games. You say that in order to live you have to love but what if living and loving don't go hand in hand. What if it's just all a game being played by something higher. I don't buy allt he higher bullshit with religion. I believe there's something out there but who knows what. My point is what if we're merely a board game being played out by something more. Round and round the board...over and over again. Smile b/c you did this, fake it because you did that. It's all so stupid. It'd be better if instead of me living out my life miserably I end it so no one has to suffer the misery. If not end it then at least go into some kind of seclusion. Shut myself down, bow out of the real world so to speak and shut down off hte cyber world. Everything and everyone..SHIT. The lies I've been spewed about caring. I'm sick of hearing it all. I'm sick of finding out that the words that were said were baseless. You said you cared, you lied. You said I mattered, you're full of shit. All people care about is themselves and getting for them. While I tirelessly give to others because I genuinely care....I get shit on. I get lied to. I get played. Fuck it and fuck you too!