pretty much every semester that i have attended classes i have had harassment. i was going home yesterday on the bus and while waiting at the bus stop, i had one car slow down and someone yelled a sentence. a lot of the folks harassing me are black females. the rest are usually a mix and end up calling me a ***** etc. i think i talked about a lady who picked a fight with me a couple of weeks ago. i am about to leave my boyfriend over the fact that he is a sociopath and hit me( slapped,same thing) back in august. i have a theory that a lot of the harassment like i have said in the past has to do with my boyfriend,me being with him and the fact that he lives in a bad neighborhood etc... i feel like the harassers are trying to play god. there is a person who is interested in me and i won't talk to him much and will probably refuse to go out with him because of the bullshit of others worrying about my business. i am considering suicide within the next few months. i feel like i won't be able to obtain a job in this town without coworkers harassing me or someone on the outside starting things. just today i took my grandmother to have her ear checked out and the two young ladies at the receptionist desk started talking about me. i just won't be able to have a normal life anymore. its not always my illness i.e. paranoia...i used to want to be a mom and now that dream is gone because of this illness. some so called relatives i don't even know have a lot to do with this. i believe in god and i hope that i don't go to hell for ending my life, which i feel has no peace and never will have a fucking shred of happiness because of other people. i am afraid of being physically harmed. there. note the keywords: my illness and other people. tell me what you think.