So tired of the hurt, so tired of the pain i feel. Im not a person. Im not who im supposed to be. Im not in the right body, i dont have the right mind. I may seem so perfect when they look from the outside in RL, but i tried to let the people on here see the inside, and all they do is twist it. I was trying not to cut because itll ruin my race this week. But who cares. Im a failure anyway. ill die soon anyway, i have a plan, i have it all planned out, i wont make it to the next race after this one, so who gives a shit if it is ruined? I might as well feel the pleasure after the pain for this, because its all i have left. All i have left is the smell of the blood as it runs, because thats all that anyone has ever cared about , is that the blood runs (and how that might smudge our public image). Might as well run the blood now, might as well let it run and never stop.