Hey.. Just kinda tired of this feeling Im having... And not sure how to describe it.. Its like.. I want a rush of some kinda.. or to be dead.. idk.. just like.. I feel like I have a future, but not sure if I want it.. Its a mix of being sad and happy.. confused... angry.. idk.. I cant describe it.. Its just this feeling I cant seem to shake.. I wana die but I dont.. I wana feel like I exist.. and like the whole world exists.. but dont feel theres a way of ever feeling that. Everything seems so vauge and time seems to just go on and on.. I kinda want to just smoke all night.. pass out... or somthin.. Anyway.. Duno what I really need.. Just duno what this feeling is.. Just want to be able to figure it out.. Or somthing.. Maybe just has to do with the Thanksgiving holiday.. idk.. just feel werid and insane-ish..