I don't really know why I'm posting this, but I think I'm very close to ending it all. I can't take the pain of life anymore. I have no friends, no money, a job I hate, I'm 28 and had to move back into my mother's place, my dad died two years ago, I live with physical pain everyday from a bad back, I have a mysterious GI disorder that noone can diagnose and has made my life a living hell, I haven't been kissed, let alone laid, in years, and I just lost the most important person I ever had in my life. She's the one person I could really trust, and could always count on being there for me, and she stopped talking to me a couple months ago. I'm also madly in love with her. Losing her friendship has been devastating, and with all the other shit I have to deal with, it's the straw that broke the camel's back. She was the last good thing in my life, and now I have nothing. I have absolutely nothing worthwhile to wake up to tomorrow, and I'm at the point where I don't even want to get out of bed anymore. I just want to lay there and cry. I just don't know how much longer I can stand this pain.