Hi everybody I got so much in my mind that I don’t know where to start First excuse all the bad miss spellings I am Portuguese and still make mistakes on certain words. Like many people I have had a tough life when I was little my father used to beat me a lot many times then I wanted to die or run away from home. Because of those beatings I had to experience a divorce that went on between my mom and dad. I then moved to the uk with my mom to get away from all the problems in Portugal but moving here caused other problems since I didn’t speak English correctly I got bullied a lot at school and have always been a loner since then it made me lose a lot of important social skills. Unfortunately my mom turned into drink and somehow got into big debt causing us to lose our home. Somehow we managed to get a council flat by the skin of our teeth unfortunately it’s a poor horrible area with lots of crime it’s a dangerous area to live in lots of teenagers carry knifes. At one point a had a girlfriend but she dumped me and I got very suicidal then ever before and as much as I hate to admit this I had an accident well it wasn’t an accident if you know what I mean. Somehow I managed to recover and here I am now upset and feeling suicidal again because I am missing a very important thing from my life and that’s success and money. Iam completely broke with no real friends a horrible place to live I have a new girlfriend now but I don’t think she loves me much either and it’s heartbreaking since I been with her for a few years now I am losing everything.