There is really no point to continuing to live. I am of no use to any one or myself. Have been taking tabs for a few days now and already feeling a little ill. Been sh'ing too - a lot which I dont often do. Pain and life is too much now. I dont know why I am posting as the decision was made days ago. After seeing a new hospital psychologist today, it only confirmed that the re is nothing anyone can do to help. Couldnt tell her outright of my plans but she realised I am quite low - thinks she will be talking to me on the phone on Monday but I wont be around. Just sad (but accepting) that noone will notice I am gone.