in the fall of 2007 i tried to take my own life. but it didnt work someone found me and rushed me to the hospital. after overdosing i spent 16hrs in cardiac care. i now have problems with shaking and short term memory issues. they say i will face kidney and liver problems in the future. my depression has never gone away i have good days and horrible days. i still just want to give up but i try to keep my head high. just yesterday found out the girl i was falling in love with got pregnant before we meet and now she is marrying the other guy and idk what to do. i lost my great grandma in feb she was my best friend. my heart physically hurts i feel like evrytime i start to feel happy i get hurt worse. its like 2 steps forward 5 back. i just want happiness an love but cant find it. im just so tired of everything. i just want it to end:lost: