i´m so tired of everything, i´ve been 5 days now without hurting myself, only 5 days and i´m going crazy. í wish i could kill myself , but i´m so damn coward i won´t do it. i´m about to brake the promes i did to my boyfried of not hurt myself anymore, i just can´t. my hands are shaking now, and i´m about to drive myself crazy. i wish i never born so i wouldn´t feel like this. i want to die now because i need to cut . i´ve imaginated for hours my arms flushing blood and i imagine to my knife and me again cutting myself o god how long will i feel like this?