Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by karey, Feb 12, 2013.

  1. karey

    karey Member

    I'm not trying to cause drama..

    I've been trying to wrap my head around this whole situation and I can't

    was it too easy?

    did we move too fast? was it like the chase was better than the catch type deal

    cause if you think that you know me.. or know all that I have to offer.. you're wrong.

    you said you were different.. that you're not like those guys

    so prove it, just don't give me some bullshit excuse that you can't commit to a relationship right now.. everyone's got their own baggage.. so there's got to be a bigger reason. maybe you're not over your last one? or maybe I did make it too easy for you or maybe I really just am not the right person for you. but I am who I am. I wear my heart on my sleeve and I show what I feel.

    it just keeps happening to me and I'm starting to see why.. but I just don't get how it was so easy for you to just let it go. like nothing happened.

    and I know you can't fully understand what I'm going through.. but it you don't even know what you're going to be missing out on. my hearts too big and I can't help that.

    I'm sorry that you feel like I'm not worth fighting for. but with all this shit i've been through I feel like I at least deserve a better explanation this time. so at least give me something. I never asked you for a relationship. I thought we were still getting to know each other if anything. I never instigated anything either.. but I also never said no. so I guess maybe it was my fault. all that being said.. I'm not trying to get back to whatever we were.. that parts kinda over now. I'd like to think at one point you actually cared.. but I'm trying to get to the root of my own shit. and this seemed like a good place to start.

    I just wish, for once, that I was worth fighting for..
  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    I am sorry that you were hurt hun really and just know ok you are worth every bit of the fight You hun find someone that will love you for who you are ok You are important and special don't let anyone make you feel differently hugs
  3. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    I'm so sorry you were hurt so badly. :( And you are right, these type of situations leave so many unanswered questions. :hug: for you.
  4. karey

    karey Member

    Thanks for all your kindness. I really am just left with so many unanswered questions. I want so badly to believe that it's not my fault, but I can't help beating myself up about it because it feels like it is.