I just dont have the energy to do anything anymore. I've been skipping so many days of school in order to lay in bed all day, and so I think I'm going to drop out. I don't wanna be like this, but I just can't get the energy to get out of bed and do something besides get food and go to the bathroom (my computer is positioned on a nearby shelf so I can use it in bed). My family is losing the house because my parents are getting a divorce, so I dont think my mom is going to be able to support me after high school. I feel guilty because there's people out there who live through a lot of hardship while I'm giving up my opportunity to enjoy financial stability to be lazy. sorry for the bad grammar in my posts. I'm not very intelligent and most of the times that I go on SF, I am drunk or high. I have made an effort to make a thread like this in the past few days, but I just feel terrible doing it and when I do manage to type something up, I change my mind and decide not to post it. I use the chat alot though because its accessible, but I still don't feel like I fit in. Don't worry, its not anyones fault...I always feel that way until I've built a really strong relationship with someone. I don't think its a trust thing because i dunno...I've never pictured myself with trust issues...I just feel like I dont fit in....damn I dunno anymore.