Had an absolute shit night, hardly slept. The more tired I get the more depressed I get, well more than I usually am. And I know I haven't hit my tiredness limit yet, as when I hit my limit I have nightmares. I know have to do something, can't be bothered, feel so numb. Everything is numb, mind, thoughts, even body. If my place was on fire, I think I would just sit here and watch it burn to the ground around me. Wouldn't care what happen to me or anything. So tired, so screwed up, so what.