So sick of all of this. So tired of the pain that is inside that no one can see or understand. I don't even know what to say, it seems like there isn't anything else to say except that I'm tired of trying to live, I'm tired of having to search for some small reason to get through each and every day. I'm tired of fighting this battle day after day. Some days are good I have even had good weeks or months but it always comes back to this. There is no medication that will give me the will to live.