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Of everything - I have no drive, no vigour no anything - I'm relapsing and again I see it happening and AGAIN I can't stop myself!

I hate myself for this...

total eclipse

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Don't hate you hun it is the dam illness Please call your doctor okay see if your meds need increasing some No fault of your own hun just need some more support right now hugs
Just too exhausted mentally atm. No energy or desire to get things done - I've curled in on myself. And the guilt and shame about it is only exacerbating the problem.

All my warning signs are in full swing. My diet sucks, I'm numb, I'm struggling to be hygenic - just about managing, thinking about hurting myself - not suiciding...

I'm so sick of this illness - so sick of having a daily grind against my own brain.

Feel an utter faliure, going nowhere but backwards. Life is once again passing me by.
Spent 45 minutes on the phone to Samaritans last night - felt better, still do - not great - but better. Just wish I could be so open with nearest and dearest.
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