I just feel so tired with everything.
I want to give up.
What's the point of continuing to circle round this negativity?
I feel like there's nothing good out there.
Not even in myself anymore.
I was always a little depressed,
but since he knocked me it's been much worse.
I still miss him everyday.
I struggle whether I should go back or not.
To be miserable because of him or to be miserable without him?
I feel like I've become a shitty human being.
No longer having it in me to love or care about someone else.
Now I'm just an empty, selfish sack of blood.
I want to travel,
I want to love,
I want to live.
It all just seems so impossible now.
I hope I can make it through this winter.