I just feel so tired with everything. I want to give up. What's the point of continuing to circle round this negativity? I feel like there's nothing good out there. Not even in myself anymore. I was always a little depressed, but since he knocked me it's been much worse. I still miss him everyday. I struggle whether I should go back or not. To be miserable because of him or to be miserable without him? I feel like I've become a shitty human being. No longer having it in me to love or care about someone else. Now I'm just an empty, selfish sack of blood. I want to travel, I want to love, I want to live. It all just seems so impossible now. I hope I can make it through this winter.