I think ive got to a stage that I dont beleive anymore, my parents dont brleive in me so they told me. Fucking hell I am sick and tired of this bullshit I scream till im blue in the face and im not herd. Im tired of this. I am losing so much. And its suposed ti be christmas where family come together, wel fuck christmas and family and friends theres no such thing. Im not being selfish but im pretty sure I havent done anything to deserve this.