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I dont know why im posting this because there isnt really a point
for a little while ive been living in a constant crisis now
every second i want to die and ive been really close to doing it all the time but i aint done it yet
why
because i want to talk about it first
i want to say my goodbyes first
but i cant do that to them now
not now everyone seems to be in crisis and they need to help so many people and i need to help people as well
i know i can help people
so i guess until things settle down i cant talk to anyone about my feelings
because theyre all worn and weary helping others takes lots of energy and i dont want to add anything onto their pain already
i guess ill just stay quiet and just do it without my goodbyes
the question is when will i do it
i dont know
all i know is that its coming
dont bother to reply to this stupid post
i just had to get it out
for a little while ive been living in a constant crisis now
every second i want to die and ive been really close to doing it all the time but i aint done it yet
why
because i want to talk about it first
i want to say my goodbyes first
but i cant do that to them now
not now everyone seems to be in crisis and they need to help so many people and i need to help people as well
i know i can help people
so i guess until things settle down i cant talk to anyone about my feelings
because theyre all worn and weary helping others takes lots of energy and i dont want to add anything onto their pain already
i guess ill just stay quiet and just do it without my goodbyes
the question is when will i do it
i dont know
all i know is that its coming
dont bother to reply to this stupid post
i just had to get it out