Nothing has changed. Nothing. Nothing more has happened. So why all of a sudden am I am mess, a shivering, shaking, panicking mess? Why all of a sudden can I not function, not do my job because half the time I can't work out where the hell I am or who I am...Is it memories coming and fucking things up and why now?? Or am I just going mad...All I want to do these days is hide in the smallest space I can find and not come out, ever. I really feel like doing something to myself that is pretty horrible and sick enough that I won't post it, but at least it would lead to a quick death. Not so great for whoever finds me. I'm so sick of this. Past should stay in the goddamn past, not creep up on you for no particular reason, argh shaking so much.