Hey, Firstly I have no friends...yep that’s right...none! *highfive* (please note that if you do indeed high five me you enter a legally binding contract where you have to be my friend, hooray! ). Thus I am lonely most of the time with nobody to speak to...about anything really. I’ve tried joining clubs and other social activities but all to no avail. Secondly I have a certain health issue which is difficult to deal with, nothing serious but it’s become a real source of frustration over the last few years. Thirdly I have spent the last two and a half years of my life stuck on a pointless university course where the teachers are poor and the workload is heavy. The university course is two days a week and the remaining three are spent on a part time job leaving only weekends to complete essays. In the first two years I achieved 70% but these two years do not count towards the third. My hard work is being slowly undone as my latest essay results have been less than satisfactory and I’m getting extremely frustrated at the university system...the entire three years will have been for nothing. The post has been rather gentle so far so unfortunately I have to bring you to the sucky bit (sorry). Recently I have been contemplating suicide...a lot. I know how I’d do it and it and I can’t stop thinking about it. Why have I not acted? Firstly because I hold on to the hope that life will improve (ironically it’s been slowly deteriorating each day) and secondly I am scared. If you have made it this far....many thanks for reading, it’s been quite nice to actually tell others how I feel.