I came here seeking help. I had searched for a suicide forum and had found one. I was just starting to become comfortable here and was starting to let out a little bit at a time. My b/f (at the time) had just broken up with me, I was in a very very very bad place. I wanted to die, or at least go numb. I went and searched for one of my knives, luckily I didn't find it so my attempt was failed. I went to log back into my account...low and behold I couldn't...then my ex started accusing me of being someone else again, and then somehow knew who I was on here. I didn't even know that he was on this website. The fact of the matter is, my account was deleted for no apparant reason, right when I needed this place. But now I can't stand anybody here I can't stand the administors or anyone. It was their fault for banning me for no FUCKING REASON. Because they thought I had multiple accounts, before actually looking into it they took action. I hadn't done anything wrong, all I did was reach out to people. But now I can't trust this shit nor any site like this. I guess I will never get the help that I obviously need. And in fact caused more problems between my now ex and I...whom is now wanting to commit. So thanks SF.