this is to all the people on here who are parents and are suicidal. Why oh why did you have children!! Seriously, you are putting them through hell with all your depression and helplessness. I'm saying this because I have a parent who is sick and has been sick since I can remember, mental health issues, physical issues you name it. The fact is, this parent has been more than a drain on my life. There is nothing i can do and I am forced to take care of them because i have no choice, they are my parents. it's like being forced to be a mother when you don't want to be. I hear people on here who are parents crying, depressed and dying and it just absolutely kills me. You are torturing your kids. they can't live a normal life because of you. you are putting them through a hell you can't even imagine. you have to suck it up and act like you are ok to them and seek help. Help yourselves for god's sake for your childrens sake. you put lives into this world, take responsibility to make sure those lives are happy ones. I am downtrodden by life because of my parent. they drain me inside out. i want to die because i am forced into a life of caring for a helpless person, something i didn't choose. please for god's sake, don't make your children bear the burden. because all i want right now is to kill myself because of this. DO NOT HAVE CHILDREN IF YOU ARE SUICIDAL. THE THOUGHTS WILL NEVER GO AWAY NO MATTER HOW MUCH THERAPY YOU HAVE. YOU WILL BURDEN YOUR FAMILY. YOU WILL PASS ON THE LEGACY. YOU WILL IN FACT PUT MORE SUICIDAL PEOPLE ON THIS EARTH. there is no need for any more suffering. wake up people. we have intelligence. use it to realize that there is a certain level of mental stability one needs to raise a happy healthy child and if you are affiliated with this forum you should've never had kids and should never want any. and if you are a child with an ill parent, sound out. life is hell.