Hey there, this is my first post
I realized how pointless life feels. How lonely it feels. I've been feeling like I have no one. The only thing I do have is this ever-lasting feeling of loneliness. I can't explain to what extent how lonely I feel. Every single day I wake up, go to school, go to my morning classes, then lunch comes and I talk to my usual group of friends but even so I feel so terribly lonely. Even if I am around them. Because all we ever talk about is petty superficial things. I never get to reach out and truly connect with someone. No matter how hard I try, no matter how many people I talk to, it always seems so useless. I end up with this dreadful feeling of complete loneliness. I want to talk deep with someone. Talk about how I feel. Talk about life. But I never get that. I have some great close friends in which I sometimes get to talk to them as I wish to. But that is rare. They are all occupied and living their own lives. I feel like I'm being left behind sometimes. And sometimes I feel like I have no genuine friendships. It's such a fucking struggle to go through the day. I'm always left alone with my thoughts and no one to talk to. No one to truly talk to. It's like an endless pattern. A loophole. Doing the same things, having the same conversations. This loneliness is stuck to me. I have no one else to talk to except for myself. This loneliness just follows me everywhere. Always.
I realized how pointless life feels. How lonely it feels. I've been feeling like I have no one. The only thing I do have is this ever-lasting feeling of loneliness. I can't explain to what extent how lonely I feel. Every single day I wake up, go to school, go to my morning classes, then lunch comes and I talk to my usual group of friends but even so I feel so terribly lonely. Even if I am around them. Because all we ever talk about is petty superficial things. I never get to reach out and truly connect with someone. No matter how hard I try, no matter how many people I talk to, it always seems so useless. I end up with this dreadful feeling of complete loneliness. I want to talk deep with someone. Talk about how I feel. Talk about life. But I never get that. I have some great close friends in which I sometimes get to talk to them as I wish to. But that is rare. They are all occupied and living their own lives. I feel like I'm being left behind sometimes. And sometimes I feel like I have no genuine friendships. It's such a fucking struggle to go through the day. I'm always left alone with my thoughts and no one to talk to. No one to truly talk to. It's like an endless pattern. A loophole. Doing the same things, having the same conversations. This loneliness is stuck to me. I have no one else to talk to except for myself. This loneliness just follows me everywhere. Always.