Tonight, I asked a question to myself and a friend, (who suggested that it be posted here). What do you find yourself more akin to? A creature of darkness searching for the light? Or a creature of light who is plagued by darkness? If I had to choose, I would be of the former category. I lie, I steal, among other things, and more often than not, its ingrained to the point where it doesn't bother me as much. Sure it's not good, but it's what my nature dictates. I can be cold, cruel, and I am capable of intense hatred, self-loathing, and other such nasty things. I don't rejoice or boast of this, more often I just see it as a result of what I've seen in my life. I'm on the outside looking in, and there will never be a door, window, or opening to let me inside. Yet that doesn't stop me from loving others or caring about them. I strive (not obsess) about being a better person. Loving better, caring better, improving myself. Yet I feel there will always be a taint there, a lingering that I won't be able to shrug off. But as long as I have the caliber of friends and loved ones that I currently do, I think I'll survive, one way or another. So where do you stand?