Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Brighid Moon, Aug 7, 2009.
don't make me turn this day around AND go get you! ((hugs))
talk to us
que paso señorita!
having a bad night?It's ok! just talk to us,hon.
What's going on brighid? :hug:
I almost went to the hospital. I still might. I'm less hysterical now. I still have no sleep. I did cut on my arm. I discovered my knives are not sharpened - I need to fix that. I have to get away from my dad. I called support groups and am going to YWCA battered women's support group to get support. Sorry for going off again. My chest hurts really badly. I beat myself up. I'm losing it hard core. I need help. I haven't been this bad in four years. I'm sorry.
:cheekkiss: don't give up
I'm having continual chest pains now.
I'm not going to the hospital.
If its not a heart attack, or pulmonary embolism, then it doesn't matter. If it is ...
Then it doesn't matter.
Hope you are o.k. You are important to us! :hug:
How are you feeling now? If you need the hospital for any reason, please go. So many here care about you. :hug:
I'm having panic and anxiety but I finally got some sleep, even if it was with the vivid dreams and nightmares again (so really kind of worthless). I'm still having chest pains. I think they're anxiety. I'm just letting them happen. I haven't been this bad in so long. I'm lost. I feel alone. I have to make such hard decisions and I don't want to because none of them are acceptable. Mourning losses. I dreamed of my dead mother. I dreamed she died again. She was hurt, she was bleeding all over. She cracked her head. It was horrible. Climbing up a straight-up street and no help. I barely made it over the edge. Tomorrow I have to go see my dad, and he calls again in less than ten minutes. Nothing ever changes. I'll get the guilt again. I always get the guilt. I can't bear it. I hope I die.
Sorry to hear that your feeling so bad. Have you tried therapy or medications? I mean if you have dealing with this for so long you may need help or at least assistance through this difficult time.
There is a part of you that wants to live as I believe you would not have posted so please listen to that part of you however difficult it is to hear.
Keep posting so we can offer support but please go to the hospital ...you body is trying to tell you something.