Just when thinks start to go right it all go's wrong and this time in a big way. I am about to lose my home due to debt in total £6000. Plus work has stoped being fun. I dont go and see my family any more a few weeks ago my sister had her baby and i have not been to see her. I can not sleep any more and just feel worn out. So right now i feel the only way i can take away all this pain i have is to die Just go to sleep and not wake up again. The voices in my head are coming back each day getting stronger. The only reson i still go to work is it breaks up my day i still try to hold on to something even if it is slipping away and i know i can not hold it for much longer. I am now fighting each day to find resons not to die and the list is getting shorter and shorter. AS for now today the blade and pills are ready and waiting and i am getting closer to using them.