I was served with papers that the foreclosure process has been started last week. There's already a lien on the property form the Home Owners Association. I have been working my ass off to pay things and get caught up and it feels impossible. I've got 25 more days to make this right. I need a lot of money, though. My plan, if I can't get the money together, is to pick a fight with my boyfriend and get him to move out. I'm then going to mail my suicide note to ever member of the HOA board, to the credit card companies, to my banks, to the people I've been working for who owe my money (working for yourself is a bitch), to the mortgage company, to Citiback where my car loan is, and to some of the political bloggers. If I have to go, I'm going to go with a lot of press. I want every person on every blog and calling in radio show and stupid news program who called unemployed people working hard to make things right a DEADBEAT to feel guilt and shame. I want my story to keep them up at night and make those who've been lucky enough to keep jobs to give until it hurts to charities that will actually help people. And mostly, I just want out. I'm going straight to heaven, because I've been in hell for two years now and I'm done.