I miss them terribly. My mother died in 2008 unexpectedly.. I miss her so much, and i feel so guilty. i feel like if i hadn't had moved out then she wouldn't have died. my father died on November 26, 2010. Only a year ago. he died of lung cancer. i sat beside him for months, holding his hand, giving him water, changing his diapers. I miss him so much and no one knows how i feel. we didn't get along good but its hard.. he would look at my siblings and tell them he loved them, but when i would tell him i loved him he would just stare at me.. sometimes i don't know whats left for me here.