I am a member of sf but my girlfriend is aware that i'm am posting under the nick I use, and if she read this post, I know that this will hurt her. I don't want to lie to her, and if she asked me about this, i'm sure i'll tell her anyway. I'm just hoping to avoid confrontations at the moment. I am a female, and my lover is a she. We've been together seven years and we're happy. We've had our dreams and now, it's coming true. I love her and despite the problems we've had last year, I know that she loves me more than anything. But before her, I happen to have a 6-year relationship with a guy. I know I don't love the guy, not before and not now. I just got infatuated with the face. It's just nice to have him around because he's pretty... like a trophy, but I know I can't bear to be with him forever. It's not a problem, though. I know that there's another woman in his life and we somehow understood each other. All I’ve ever wanted from this guy is a child. If I’d get myself pregnant, it’s just practical to choose a father with good genes, right? Before our relationship ends, my period was delayed for over a month and after that, a month of bleeding. I don’t know if I got miscarriage or what. I just knew that when we parted, there’s still no child. Now, after 7 years, we’ve meet again. He’s still as pretty as I remembered him, and as flirtatious and in truth, I’m still attracted to him. He made it clear that he still wants me, and that he can’t still accept that fact that I resorted to a “gay” relationship. I am tempted. Very. Oh, God, I’m so confused. I love my gf and I’m going out of my mind!