I don't know where to start. I'm scared every moment of everyday. I have a lot of medical problems that overlap on one another. (IBS, crohnes, skin, urination, mental) I lay down all the time but can't get any sleep. I want to die to escape, but death scares me out of my mind too. (there seems to be no painless way to kill yourself) I can't take any medications to help me either as they all seem to aggrivate my medical problems. Have to force myself to stay up rather then lay down constantly. Which is even more maddening.