It's 2am. And yessterday, to stop the crying I drank alot (I usually don't drink) and snorted pills that were unfamiliar to me. It worked to stop the crying. I'm not a regular drug user....I don't even smoke weed. But, I AM addicted to an anti-anxety medication, the one I intend to end my life with. I feel all of a sudden, afraid of the world outside of me. And I'm not sure why. I'm supposed to be this "chick rock singer" holding up fine on the stage....But, instead, I cry it out, use drugs prescribed and some unfamiliar while I am off stage. It wasn't supposed to be this way. I do have to admit tho, that THAT coming HERE, I find slight relief, because at least someone talks back with me and for that I am greatful.