I don't know why they hate me so much and toy with my emotions so much. Literally, I'm one of the most undesirable men in the whole fucking fucked up world. I'm a 5'4" skinny 24 year old virgin whose never even had a real kiss much less anything else. Most women just toy with me and pretend they like me only to hurt me in the end. I don't even act like a pushover towards them, yet they STILL hate me! I can't act like a jerk towards them; that only works with the tall guys... if a short guy is a jerk, it is seen as having a "Napoleon complex." Being nice certainly doesn't work either, because in this crappy sphere of blue, kindness is equated to weakness. The only way I would be able to get a woman is if I literally just settle for one that I don't feel anything for just 'cause I can't get any better, or if I had a lot of money, or paid for an escort. Shit, I've gotten to the point where I actually admire these Beverly Hills gold-digging materialistic "I shit icecream and I'm perfect" heartless diva bitches... at least there's no delusions behind what they do and they KNOW what they want. I'm sick of these women who say "I'm a simple gal; I'm not a dollar-sign eye bitch and am non judgmental!" yet turn around and judge me anyways! I don't even know why I give a fuck... I'm gonna kill myself anyways whether I end up losing my virginity on my final vacation or not. Every single day of this ceaseless loneliness is just one more thing telling me "I should've saved up more of my dad's social security money and gotten me a mail-order bride."