I'm a pretty normal guy for the most part, I just turned 18 a few weeks ago, I go to high school (Failed courses in Grade 9 so I still have half a year left), and I have a part-time job. I smoke and drink occasionaly, As well as light drugs. but I just realized that no one really cares about me aside from my parents. No one said happy birthday to me on my 18th birthday except my immediate family. My extended family doesn't like me. My mom forced me to have a birthday dinner with my "whole family" and all that showed up was my grandma, aunt, and 1 cousin who is 10. I have 'friends' sort of.. who I talk to at school, but I never see them outside of school. I'm a member of the group, but I'm not.. its hard to explain. When someone leaves they slap hands with everyone individualy, except for me. I'm never really included in the conversation at all and sometimes I even get ignored when I talk. I am also anti-social. I get asked to hang out after school or on weekends and I always make stuff up like, I have work or I need to study when really I dont. I am also obviously a virgin and have never had a girlfriend. Girls have had crushes on me and liked me, but my self-esteem was never good enough to say anything. I feel like, every time I walk away from someone after talking to them, they begin to make fun of me. My self esteem is really, REALLY low. But I've never been really made fun of in school or anything... I'm not bad-off like most depressed people... I'm not ugly and I dont have a bad family situation, so why am I like this? do I have some kind of mental disability? should I see a therapist about this? edit: I should add I'm not feeling suicidal yet, but I feel that if my life doesn't get better I will be in the future.