dont be sorry, get it out anywhere you can. You asked me why you cant leave, well cause sucide is not an ordianary life thing, it has become so acceptable but really think about it, choosing to take your own life should be looked at like your taking someone elses to, the life you could have, the life you could create for yourself.
We all have times that everything just sucks ass, but there are also times where you think I can do this, its not so bad. Today may not be one of those times but do you want to take the chance of missing out on it being like that tomorrow?