I normally have been having quite a lot of trouble lately. But today I saw the pain I have caused. You might be hurting so bad you can't see the pain you're causing. I am begging and praying my girlfriend comes back. I have been terrible. I have only felt pain and havent even been able to see the pain I caused. The pain is so bad I gave up. I gave up and tried to get peace. Tried to escape the pain. With every attempt my pain got worse because of the damage I was doing to those I loved. I was loosing the people I loved most and it kept hurting more and more. I still feel all the pain. I still want the pain to end. I still need some kind of help. But I don't want to share the pain with everyone else. Not the kind of wealth I want to spread. I'm so sorry to those I hurt. Please forgive me.