I've spent the last about 10 days in various levels of hell - severe depression... I woke up today and it's different. By which I do not mean better. Today I don't feel as overwhelmingly depressed...today I am numb-er. I don't really feel ANYTHING. Not sad or depressed, or anxious; not happy or content. Not even tired, even though I have been up since 12:55am (thanks, coffee.) I got nothing. I don't feel. I am empty, just existing. Wait, that's a lie: I feel irritable, and restless - agitated - and a little desperate. But in a weird, no-context kind of way; it's weird to feel irritable and not have a source or cause to pin it to, which at the moment I don't think I do. I'm unstable, and alienated in the world.