Today is the day

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Rukia, Oct 6, 2007.

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  1. Rukia

    Rukia Well-Known Member

    It's less than 10 hours until my parents leave. I feel so guilty, but I have to end it while I'm alone. I've waited for this the last 7 years. It's a stupid thing to do, my life can get better, but I'm losing my mind. I have to get ready, clean my room and write my suicide note.
    I'm getting exited, I'm finally going to do this! :biggrin:
  2. Half Zellet

    Half Zellet Member

    I wish I could talk you out of this you seem to think your life can get better, theres some doubt then? Why not wait a week this is a forever chioce to make my freind. There are loads of folk here who will help you through this please just give it a bit of time. I feel like a bit of a hipicrit (soz about spelling) cause I know the exitment thing well, but serious wait, and talk. message me NOW if you like?

    I need to go just now but real message me, cause I will be back later and tommorow morning to check your all right :hug:
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  3. Rukia

    Rukia Well-Known Member

    Yes, I'm having some doubts, but only because I'm scared that my death would ruin lives. :sad:
  4. Luna_Lovegood

    Luna_Lovegood Member

    If you want to talk to someone you can PM me as well. I feel kinda connected to you because I noticed you're from Norway like me. Hope you reconsider. :hug:
  5. Luna_Lovegood

    Luna_Lovegood Member

    Obviously your death will be horrible for your family and friends. But you shouldn't live your life for other people; you should try to find something worth living for for YOU. (And I'm sure you can...)
  6. Rukia

    Rukia Well-Known Member

    I'm not worth living for. :dry:
  7. Luna_Lovegood

    Luna_Lovegood Member

    It may feel like that now, sure I am feeling like that as well, but you may change your mind some day soon, and if you kill yourself today you won't have the chance to change your mind.
  8. Puddytat

    Puddytat Well-Known Member

    dont give up yet. its like that guy on 'the bridge' movie, he killed himself coz he felt useless and couldnt get the job he wanted. the day he did it there was a message on his answering machine saying he got the position. it could have all changed around for him had he given it the chance. the same almost happened to me, if i had actually gone through w/ it i wouldnt have gotten the job that changed my life around, now things are getting better even though it took a long time to get there.
  9. danni

    danni Chat Buddy

    dont do it please hun, stay and talk to me please :hug:
  10. Rukia

    Rukia Well-Known Member

    The only thing that could change my life enough for me to want to live is if the voices would disappear and never come back. That's not going to happen.
  11. Beret

    Beret Staff Alumni

    Yes hun the voiices can disappear with meds and therapy. Please dont give up.
    You are in my thoughts and prayers.
    Beret xxx
  12. gentlelady

    gentlelady Staff Alumni

    There are no certainties in life Rukia. Just as the voices came, they could just as easily go. The mind is an odd creature. We don't know what it's capabilities are. Stranger things have happened. You don't want to die. You want the voices to stop and the pain it brings with them. Don't give up on yourself hun. :hug:
  13. -Deception-

    -Deception- Well-Known Member

    I presume words of comfort are superfluous here. All I can say is that suicide is definite; there's no going back. So unless you're 100% sure, please do think twice.

    Hälsningar från Sverige :D
  14. pit

    pit Well-Known Member

    What exactly has driven you to this, Rukia?

    You must give whatever you're going through some time, because problems work themselves out. Trying to kill yourself might make things worse than your actual problems.
  15. Rukia

    Rukia Well-Known Member

    Thank you all for your replys. I wish I was strong enough to fight this, but I'm not. Talking to my parents tonight makes me so sad. I hate feeling so guilty. :sad:

    I've been depressed and suicidal for 7 years, I think that is long enough.
  16. KingRett

    KingRett New Member

    i'am hoping iam not too late but please dont do it. this is my 1st post ever. but this was the very 1st thing i looked on SF but i am smart enough to look at all the topics you made. but i thought you made a deal with "them", the monsters, or the voices if you could fight them off and live for your next birthday "they" will give you more control or leave. plus your friends and your family will be so sad if they know if you die. even everyone on SFcare about you. even i care about you even if you are a total stranger to me and i dont know anything about you. I'am depressed and suicidal for a very long time too. sometimes i get voices, and i would have to drive the demons out templery. so i do know how you feel almost 100%.
  17. ShalenaM

    ShalenaM Well-Known Member

    But if you die, you will never know if they will dissappear or not.

    No one deserves to die. Well, not you anyway..:rolleyes:

    You should stick around. Talk to people..Let your feelings out on here..but please do not kill yourself.:)..atleast not intentionally..:smile:
  18. Rukia

    Rukia Well-Known Member

    I couldn't do it. Stupid guilt :dry:
  19. Beret

    Beret Staff Alumni

    Im so happy hun u didnt make any stupid decision
    Love you very much,
    Beret xxxx
  20. ace

    ace Well-Known Member

    I'm so glad you didn't do it hun,you're stronger than you think I know it's not easy but please keep trying if you need anything what so ever please let me know.
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