I really dont know what to say.. I been inactive for a few days now, didnt really talk to much people so dont even know if they would remember me on here. Anyway just wanted to say this is going to be my last day.. Im going to finally end it all for good. My first suacide attempt was around march last year after my girlfriend told me she wanted to break up with me. I just couldnt face life without her with me, she was everything to me. my best friend, sould mate, and the one person i ever truely loved. I tried overdosing .. She was distrought she said she wanted to give things another go. I wasted that chance i didnt really change now i feel so guilty and regret everything, because i know where i am now is my own fault. I was given the chance now i wasted it. October the 10th (2 days around that date anyway..) she broke up with me.. My world ended i had nothing.. She still means everything to me, even though she caused me alot of pain recently, which i know i caused her to do.. I still love her more then ever. She wants nothing to do with me, and made sure i cant contact her again. I actually went round her house yesterday (She lives 100miles away), she wasnt in. I went after around 30min of waiting, i knew i'd most likely scare her just turning up like this i didnt want to do that to her.. Lost all hope of her being in my life, i know to most people it sounds like a little thing to want to kill yourself for..but to me she's my world, everyday without her is torture, i cant sleep knowing shes with some one else. I love her so much it hurts, in a few hours it will all be over atleast. Good bye for now.