Hey there, Northbridge
I'm glad you made it through the day, even if it was a fluke. Now on to the next.
Hey, you know it seems kind of reasonable that your wife or partner or whatever should know that you're thinking like this. It's kind of unfair to her for you to take your life without her knowing jack shit, don't you think? Don't leave her with that legacy. You say you love her **that much** but you want her to feel the kind of pain that just doesn't let up? Come on, that makes no sense. Have you tried everything you've got in you to work this out -- therapy, medications, hospitalization.. everything? Because I'm the survivor of some suicides and nothing compares to that shit. It's not like you just die and go away. It's not like you died in a car accident. It's not like cancer. It's you making a conscious choice to give her the finger and tell her fuck you, you're not worth it, I'm leaving. You, of course don't see it that way -- you just want the pain to end, the suffering you feel inside to cease. I get it -- but she won't. She never will. And if you guys have kids together they won't get it either (and they'll also become more likely to kill *themselves* later on as well)
Generally I wouldn't fire off a 1st post this brutally. I think you're gonna be pretty cool to talk to honestly but I think you're in a dire situation here so I'm trying to get a point across *quickly* in case you return and read this. I really hope you choose to live. Please tell your lady that you're feeling this way, let her begin to help you. You guys get some help together.
