... i cleaned out my room, my car and my locker. i threw out every last one of my blades. all of the broken glass i saved from when i had nothing else. i threw out all of my emergency safety pins. it was time. i have not harmed myself in almost a year, but i always kept them there as a back-up, a just-in-case, if you will. but i have come to realise i don't need it anymore, not even as a backup. not at all. and i know in my heart that even if i fall again that i will not need it because i have more constructive methods of coping. i've learned that it's okay to ask for help, and to surround yourself with people who love you unconditionally. and you are allowed to love yourself, too. if i can do it, one day, you can too. it's possible, i promise. it was one of the most liberating things i have ever done.